Posts tagged ‘love’

July 6, 2013

days gone by

my beautiful big boy,

i was reminded today, in yoga class of how i sang these words to you- for months as you transitioned to living a life outside (outside of me but in to our family).

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OjAYkFpyqp8

i am amazed by you. you who is so deeply involved in the process of becoming versions of yourself that we have yet to meet.

while watching you, though i am so excited to meet the boy you will be, i can’t help but remember when you were small enough to fit in my neck, new enough to want to be held tight against my chest, and basic enough that you were easily soothed by the hum of my voice.

how fast it goes.

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July 5, 2013

fire bird

dear you,

i’m not sure what i did to deserve a baby like you but, thank you.

thank you for your sunny disposition. thank you for sharing your generous and genuine affection without any reservation. thank you for lighting up when you catch sight of me. thank you for your powerful, warm, medicinal, smile. thank you for breathing in my face- your delightful apple juice scent, evidence that you really are sweet to the core. thank you for sloppy open-mouthed kisses. thank you for your bright, mischievous, eyes. thank you for your alfalfa mohawk that makes it impossible to take life too seriously. thank you for “talking” with your eyebrows and in so doing bringing your tofino family closer. thank you for being so busy in your body and keeping us all wondering. thank you for being patient with me. thank you for teaching me about unconditional positive regard. thank you for being a ray of light.

you exemplify tolerance and grace, my little man, and i absolutely adore you.

“god help you if you are a phoenix and you dared to rise up from the ash” -ani.

June 16, 2013

baby daddy

“What is a saint? A saint is someone who has achieved a remote human possibility. It is impossible to say what that possibility it. I think it has something to do with the energy of love. Contact with this energy results in the exercise of a kind of balance in the chaos of existence. A saint does not dissolve the chaos; if he did the world would have changed long ago. I do not thing that a saint dissolves the chaos even for himself, for there is something arrogant and warlike in the notion of a man setting the universe in order. It is a kind of balance that is his glory… He can love the shapes of human beings, the fine and twisted chaos of the heart. It is good to have among us such men, such balancing monsters of love.”

– Leonard Cohen, Beautiful Losers

May 20, 2013

cheating on my husband

dear tofino,

i love you and i always have.

sincerely, yours.

May 10, 2013

gift of gifts

this is destined to go viral and therefore i am unoriginal and redundant for posting but there are few things more precious and precious moments are what matter (to me). mother and son’s day. swoon.