Posts tagged ‘fitness’

December 19, 2012

mom on the run

a few days ago i took this postpartum body out for a run. i flirted with running last week, just to show this old girl she could, but on saturday, it was officially run number one.

i took myself along a road i have driven, biked, walked, and ran before but, despite it’s familiarity, it all felt different. my body felt different, my breath felt different, my mind. in all fairness, i guess it is.

when i was 23, i moved from montreal to the edge of vancouver island, to a little sleepy town i had often visited and had lived in once before, and now, 10 years later and after having left again to pursue different dreams, i was back, returning to connect with my husband’s family over the holidays and hopefully with myself, too.

we come back often, as you do when you love a place and the people that make it so, and so i am no stranger to the area. i felt it though, while running, that something had shifted.

it’s not just my perception, i don’t think. a tremendous amount has changed since i first lived here- not just structurally, as the town has expanded multifold, but i have transformed too, as has my life alongside. there are the obvious changes that can’t be missed- i come back now with a partner and with two sons that our union has produced- but there are other aspects altered, as well. unlike the town, my changes don’t always feel expansive, however.

i am older now, you see, and my pace on the side of the road doesn’t allow for me to pretend that i’m not. my body, riddled with scar tissue and stretch marks, has broken down some- sports injuries and car wrecks have caught up with my joints and i am less fluid in motion.

my spirit has aged too- i am no longer full of maybe dream lives brewing, bubbling and bursting in me- i live that ‘maybe’ now- and having arrived where i’m supposed to be i don’t behave as though every interaction, moment, or choice might bring me to one of those potential possibilities. i don’t question what might be constantly, i am not as thirsty, and i’m not reckless with my acquaintances, money, love, or time. and, though this is responsible, it is also less exciting and i find that with less chaos and with more intimacy in my life, i have also become more insular, less connected with much outside of my wee world- sometimes not out of preference, but out of necessity.

i’m pretty sure that it’s for this reason that my love of running has not changed, despite my body’s resistance and my deteriorating performance. i see things differently when i’m running. i think differently. i dream and create opportunities in my head differently, or at all. it’s all forward running, no circles, and i notice what is present, and what is absent. i notice me. on saturday, i noticed others too, people i know from former lives, and i noticed that they have apparently also aged. and though this unfortunately confirms that time does not wait for anyone, it also highlights that life is, indeed, advancing in some linear way, regardless that i sometimes doubt that this is true for me.

since, i’ve taken my shoes to the beach a few times and felt my lungs, head, and heart open up. i like who i am at the end of a run, i like who i might become. i’m gonna keep it up. lots, actually. stay tuned.

November 26, 2011

transformative practice

 thank you for soul vibes when the city feels alone, thank you for a needed break, when i don’t want to be at home. thank you for strengthening me, thanks for peace infusion too. thank you for bringing me into my body, a needed reminder, it’s true.

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October 4, 2011

let it grow bigger the the sun

dear self,

i hear you need a pep talk. you wanna know how to revolutionize your life? manifest personal greatness and desired outcomes? i got you covered, listen up. here’s how:

first, get rested. nothing is as important or critical as rest. sound impossible? it’s not. in order for you to get more beauty sleep something will have to be compromised, something will have to lose out. you, however, can only win if you’re rested . so, no excuses. get napping. or, alternatively, if you work like a race horse and the opportunity to nap eludes you, go to bed early. simple.

next, drink loads of h2o. not much else is required, though, admittedly, i’m partial to some java and vino in the mix, as you may know. and, obviously, eat less crap. no need to get defensive, there is no point. it’s true, you consume garbage and it’s holding you back. pure food is dream fuel.

then, sweat some. get your sweat on walking, running, stretching, dancing, playing, or laughing even, for all i care. it doesn’t matter how, it matters why. your blood needs it to be pumped up and your head needs it too. don’t think it does?you’re wrong. manifesting greatness is big work and you gotta be clear. a little sweat detox, a little blood cleanse, a little intestinal flush, it goes a long way. trust me on this one.

now that you are physically ready, you gotta find your soul center. sounds big, yah? it’s not. you already know where it is. go there, deep there, and ask for some help. offer a trade, pull a favour, barter. you gotta get your spirit on side. you may need to work at this one, neglect takes it’s toll on relationships and you may have to build up trust again. it’s a process that can’t be rushed. romance yourself, and have some fun doing it. once you’re there, connected and whole, listen. be reminded that purpose is perfectly paired with patience. you need both to go forward gracefully.

with body and spirit awake, now it’s time to use your brain. revolutions have never just been about emotion. get informed, get organized, get strategic, get purposeful, get committed. it’s mission time.

ready? alright. ready, set, implement. time to introduce your readiness to your hopes and intentions, embark on your action plan, and meet the opportunities as prepared as you need to be. face forward, and smile while you’re at it.

catch you later, self. best wishes as you grow the life you want to be living.

p.s.- feel free to consider a drastic hair cut. change begins with change. 

p.p.s- remember to thank the universe when it all works out. gratitude will take you far in this life.

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May 30, 2011

the hot wife

mission:

get fit, attempt # 28.0 (missions #1.0-#27.0 = fail).

strategy:

intention + effort + commitment (again).

specifics:

enough said.

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May 30, 2011

the hot wife

mission:

get fit, attempt # 28.0 (missions #1.0-#27.0 = fail).

strategy:

intention + effort + commitment (again).

specifics:

enough said.

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